Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Sunday, March 9, 2008
He defines me as beauty but my eyes still see disaster
I feel like the closer I get to feeling normal again, the quicker I turn around and feel like the Pharisees as whitewashed tombs in Matthew 23:27
I shouldn't doubt God as I do. He says that His words have supported those who stumbled; He have strengthened faltering. His love and protection should strengthen me, not make me want something else that I can see and feel, no matter how distructive it is. When will I learn to never falter in Christ's love He has given me?
"God cannot move on to the next work without your willingness to wipe out the remains of the last."
I don't remember who said that...but I think it's true. But I don't know how to wipe out the remains of everything. I feel bloodstained with no way to remove to traces of what I've done and gone through.
I have nothing left to do but pray.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Spring Cleaning
“Well I just think that it all works out. And if it doesn’t, I am going to have to change my thinking...” - Cliff Spence.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
The longest longing...
We are convinced that a rightly lived life must give us serenity, completion and fulfillment. Comfort means "right" and distress means "wrong". The influence of such convictions is stifling to the human spirit. Individually and collectively, we must somehow recover the truth. The truth is, we were never meant to be completely satisfied. --Gerald May
I'm finally starting to believe this truth...that I will always be longing. Because we are bound by our flesh and redeemed by the Lamb, pursuing comfort is nothing more than a chasing after the wind.But comfort, as my human nature defines it, is so enticing. Comfort as the defined by the Lord troubles me...you never what may come, be it seasons of loneliness, of persecution, of abundance, of sorrow or joy, comfort for the child of God is very different. It is volatile and fragile, unexpected and uncontollable.
Perhaps we shouldn't even use the word comfort.Perhaps sovereign sufficiency is a better explanation of how we ought to live. That we live trusting and believing, clinging to the promise and knowledge that the Lord has mapped out our life, laid down his foundations for us to stand and live upon. And that as creator of our needs, he will provide for those exact needs, and sometimes we will be unhappy and engulfed in distress. At other times our joy and peace will be evident to all.
However, no matter where we feel we are, we must never forget he will never satisfy so much that we no longer hope for Glory. That deeply embedded distress within every soul...that is the longest longing from which there is no deliverance until Christ returns to bring us home.